Aimless Deliberation

Well, it's New Year's Eve and I thought it best to close this year out with a review of 2013.  I was listening to NPR one Saturday and listened to different people summarize their 2013 lives (as a part of Hanukkah) and I thought what a good practice.  I like the idea of this practice, mainly because we, as human beings, tend to forget (or overshadow) the great blessings and often the negative actions we have encouraged (intentional and unintentional).  Don't get it twisted, we most definitely remember ALL of the negative things that have happened to us but we spend little time on those that we gave out; but that's another topic on another day. Blessings for the year Celebrated my 10th year of marriage with the greatest husband and friend; who could have imagined the love, respect, and connection I have with this man? Spent 7 nights on the Kaui'i island in Hawai'i; what? Spent 30 days in India; met many new friends, learned more about an int...

Last night, I hung out with one of my really good friends and some of her friends.  Thought the course of the night, we all had various conversations went from one place to the next and just enjoyed conversation and the people around us.  To me, that's what hanging out should be about; not about exclusion/using people. In life, we spend too much time focusing on the wrong things.  Life is too short fake relationships; if you don't want to spend time with me then don't.   Jamie and I have a great time together and very seldom NEED to spend time with others.  While we enjoy hanging out with others, we can't continue putting more into our relationships than others are willing to give. So, as a part of the things that I learned, here's one People are who they are no matter what you do or say, if you don't like them or to be around them, don't.  You aren't helping the relationship by forcing something that doesn't exist.

So, one of my co-workers asked me if I realized that I was one step away from being a  Director  my response, "Sometimes I do, but most of the time I think that I have a long ways to go."  After she and I finished talking, I started to think about my statement.  See my statement was based on where I think I am right now in my career, my statement was based on the thoughts (or perceptions) that I think others have on my career progression.     Why does it matter?  I honestly have no idea.  I think that it is natural for us to get caught up in that "everybody else" complex but that doesn't help us grow as individuals.  In fact, imitating or trying to impress others only helps to perpetuate low confidence and self-esteem. I have worked very hard to ensure that I understand expectations, build and manage strong teams, and meet objectives as set before me.  I have created bonds that others never saw and implemented processes and s...

So, this blog was originally created for me and Jamie to post our thoughts on various topics.  Seeing as though that hasn't panned out, I am going to go back to the reason I liked the idea of blogs anyway.  I use to journal all of the time and have found myself wanting to start another journal (this time digital). Over the past year or so, many things have occurred. After talking with Jamie, he advised that I should not react to everything, sometimes I should just sit back and observe.  For those that know me, you know that this is a very hard ting for me because I am very vocal. First thought... I truly have a great husband.  Yesterday, I got all four of my wisdom teeth pulled and was given instructions on what I needed to do after the procedure.  Jamie made sure that I took my pills on time, changed out my ice pack, flipped it from side-to-side, and checked on me very often.  I kept telling him that I was fine but he insisted that I rest....

So, let's see.  The week started out with me in front of 14 people who eagerly want to learn everything quickly, so they can start working.   The eagerness and enthusiasm was very exciting and encouraging.   There were a few unpleasant things about the first day though: ·          We were in a room that had a malfunctioning air conditioner; it was ~109 degrees that day and I had on jeans and a long sleeve T-shirt (guess who wasn’t eager to get too close to anyone for the remainder of the day). ·          It also was the first time in a very long time that I spent that much time in front of people talking (now I remember why I tasked my analysts with this responsibility J ).   ·          Internet connection SUCKED (really? People aren’t able to function without cell phones that can essentially hold a conversation with you and this 12-story, b...

I think I finally felt the time difference today.  I woke up @ 7:a.m. IST just as I did yesterday; I video-chatted with Jamie @ 8:00 a.m. IST/9:30 p.m. CST.  I went down for breakfast with my co-worker @ 9 a.m. IST/10:30 p.m. CST.  When I came back upstairs, my intent was to go over my presentation documents for the first day of training tomorrow.  I sat down to watch a little TV then thought I can take a nap for about an hour and a half then I can get up and go to The Royal Lounge to work (that way I can be out of the room when they come to service it).  Needless to say, my plans didn't work out so well.  I slept until 6; then woke up to find out that I could not access the documents that I needed to review.  Luckily, I have a great husband and partner who went up to the office to aid with my dilemma. Well, I am shutting down for the night to try and get some sleep before the first day in the office.  If I have to come ...

My co-worker and I made it safely to Delhi/Gurgaon India yesterday @ 3:15 pm IST/4:30 am CST.  The flight was long but not terribly uncomfortable; the place was very large with seat that could convert into sleeping space.  The food and service were very good. The airport is large and not terribly different from the states; it is a newer airport so I expected this.  When first exiting, I heard a man call the name of our hotel but didn't think anything of it, because a driver and Sanchita and Naren (company representatives) were supposed to meet us.  The man then said, "Mrs. Morris" which took me by surprise.  Apparently, only the drivers can come into to the airport and they are not allowed to wait with their cars.  They sent two cars for me and my co-worker. Riding in cars with the steering wheel on the right side is a little different and makes me wonder if I could get used to it.  Nevertheless, there are lanes lanes on the roa...

So, I know it's been a while since the last post. So, here it goes... Some will be rambling and some may make complete sense. I am trying to figure out when or how we can get to a place where everyone is okay being who they are.  I have figured out that many people (sometimes through no fault of their own) are really shady and dishonest.  Most of the time it's because people just aren't okay with who they are.  They are desperately trying to be the person that everyone notices, the person with the nicest clothes, the person who makes a lot of money, the person who is always funny, the person that can sing or dance, essentially the person that IS NOT THEM. Why does this bother me so much?  It bothers me because I spend a lot of time caring for others, trying to love them as the person that they are and end up being the one that people try to take advantage of, only call when they need something, or just plain don't like me because I am too nice, too ho...