Everyone gets a choice...

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If I had a choice to live a short life with fame and fortune or a long life as it is today, which would I choose? When this question was originally asked of me, I think I responded too quickly. See, my first response was that I would choose to live my life out on its current path. My thought process was that choosing a different life says that I am not happy with the life I have. As I considered the response of the requester, I now get what they were trying to say about being known for something.

Now, I have thought about of this several times and there is not a way to say this without sounding somewhat remorseful.  To be known for something was the response that someone gave me and I get it. None of this is to say that I don't love my life because I absolutely do; it is mine to live the best I possibly can.

In this life, the only person that will remember me is Jamie; the life/spirit/dreams/thoughts of Tammy die with him. We have no children together to carry down who we are or what we represented and while I wish it was different; I am pretty sure that our son will never know us. So, when you hear us say that we are just trying to live this life the best that we can, that is truly what we are trying to do.  We aren’t trying to be someone else or prove something.  We are simply trying to do anything and everything we want before what we have is gone. 

After all this consideration and back and forth, I think I will still with my original answer. If I can live this one life well enough to have a profane impact on- just a few people that will carry me in their hearts, I am okay with that.  I don't want my life's measurement to be how many people know my name. I want my life measurement to be about the meaningful relationships that I form/have formed where people continue to carry me in their hearts even after I pass.


Guess I better get to work!!!

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